i saw a "white power" tattoo on a guy today in walmart. he had his family with him.. which means his little boy probably aspires to, one day, have his very own.

how is it that people who move in next to me have huge stereos. every time.

today i bought ice cream that has tiny chocolate bunnies in it. yum.

i also cleaned house, throwing out three trashbags full of useless crap. felt sooo good.

my southwest egg rolls beckon...

*sigh*.......i had such high hopes for my new neighbors... alas, more yelling. at least this time there don't seem to be children involved.

today i took a technological leap and bought myself an optical mouse. my other mouse used to get stuck for no reason, i cleaned it and it still sassed me. so i kicked it to the curb. this one's still got a cord, but it has a scroll wheel that can be programmed as a third button.. so i set it up as a double click button and have been rockin the web!! for $12!!!!

i also picked up a little cd tower for my computer cd's.. can i get more organized????

i've spent the past two nights and some of today watching back episodes of buffy the vampire slayer. my sister, 'cause she rocks the muthafukken hizzouse, lent me seasons 2, 3, and 4 on dvd. i watched season one while i was home this summer and got totally hooked.. i'm one episode away from finishing season two. it's a fuckin good show yo.

i don't know what else to report... work is fine.. new td (jerry) is a wonder to behold.. he is really gettin some shit done. he drafts on autocad, which i have a copy of but don't know how to use (i learned minicad, the mac platform). he gave me his old manual, since it's the same version, and i plan to get down with the computer drafting at home!! woot!

tonight jessie and i are planning to get drunk, watch movies and order take out. did i mention the drunk part?

our new td is so rad it's like christmas every day. he makes me feel like a lazy ass.

yesterday, i swore i'd never drafted before in my life and had no idea what 'scene design' was.
i had some drinks, then it was better.

your cursor changed when you visited this page. it's 'cause i own your ass and you didn't even know it.

i need a pensieve. real bad.

Alyson Hannigan Gallery 19

new hottie for the list!!!1

my child beating next door neighbors are blasting latin soft rock. if i remembered more spanish from high school, i could sing along it's so loud. they're sposed to be moving out.... won't be a nanosecond too soon.

you know what's fun? wrapping your right wrist in an ace bandage and attempting to do any of the following:

a.) type with any method other than hunt-and-peck
b.) drive a stick shift
c.) switch the buttons on your mouse and use it left-handed

for anyone wondering "why the ace bandage, deafgirl?" it's because my right wrist still hurts (and there is now new-and-improved-swelling-action) and so, in a last ditch effort in the name of self-healing, i've wrapped it and am attempting to use it as little as possible. if it still hurts on monday, i plan to bite the bullet and go to the doctor with my grown up health insurance. if it's carpal tunnel, you'll see me on the news, going ballistic with some kind of automatic weaponry.

yesterday i felt all professional.. i drove into chicago (all by myself, mom!) to take a meeting with my director for noises off. he likes what i've done, and is excited about working with me. how cool is that?

today is not as exciting, i get to go to work and vacuum.

wednesday i went to see pirates of the carribbean... what a cool movie!! i wasn't sure what to expect when i went, but it really turned out to be way better than i thought. it's just a fun movie. it's not all plot development character analysis structure and deep insights, it's cool fx and just a whole lot of fun, in the same way the ride is just sittin in the boat, watchin all the pirates be nasty and fun. i've decided that i'm quitting my job as a scenic designer and becoming a pirate.
who's with me????

shout outs, o shout outs.. wherefore art thou, shout outs?

you know how you learn something new every day? today i learned that i can shuffle when i play mp3 discs in my dvd player!!

over the weekend we went to steppenwolf to see homebody/kabul which is truly a great piece of theatre. it's about afghanistan in 1998, and was written by tony kushner. he also wrote angels in america. don't know if you can hot tix there, but if you can afford it you should go see the show. it's 3 1/2 hrs long but it really flies and there are two intermissions to help. and, ray kurut is in it!

after the show we went across the street to an afghan restaurant, called the kabul house, for dinner. afghan food is weird. i filled up on pitas mostly but gamely tried everything that came out of the kitchen except for the lamb stew and the eggplant. the lamb kebob was good and there was this chicken rice thing that was pretty tasty too. i fly home for a week on sat, aug 2nd, and my brother in law wants to go out for ethiopian..

work is still sucking, we're still searching for an artistic director and a td, and a props master for that matter... i talked to a guy today that faxed his resume in for the td position, and he looks really good. sounded really interested on the phone too, we're hooking back up on thursday for any additional questions/concerns. i really hope he takes the job. he sounds like he really has his shit together and he'll make me be better at my job, as much as i might curse him for it. still working on noises off, it's hard.

in other news, um...... i got some new vans for my feet and a gel wrist rest for my keyboard. my right wrist doesn't feel any better, and i'm really hoping it's not some crazy carpal tunnel action... i don't spend my life behind the keyboard and i'm left handed!?!

that's all i got.

big thunderstorms friday night = lost power all weekend. got all new groceries now. thanks mom.

something's wrong with my wrist, not sure what it is but it's sore and bothersome.

gettin' a new artistic director at some point. gettin new computers at work tomorrow.

readin the harry potter books, finished #2 yesterday, startin on #3 tomorrow.

goin' home for the first week of august.

feeling misanthropic most days. look it up.

this afternoon i killed wasp #3. my sketchbook, weapon of choice among the best of the best, has consequently been dubbed the wasp waster. i have discovered what i believe to be the point of entry and have taken steps to shut the bitches down. since i've weatherstripped the living crap out of the gap in my window, i have managed to successfully thwart the attempts of two other would-be intruders in their dastardly plot to enter my home and sting the almighty bejeezus out of me and my furry cat friend.

in other news, i got no $$. i bought gangs of new york on dvd today anyway, in an awsome display of flagrant disregard for the priciniples of "budget" and "cashflow". also, good call on the sunburn at the gay pride parade. my nose is red. like santa, or the neighborhood drunk.

when i got home from work today there was a wasp in my living room. i freaked out, and then took my sketchbook in hand to put an end to the madness. i ducked and weaved, side stepped and dodged, flailed and swatted... it was cinematic....
eventually it flew behind the blinds and i smashed it against the window. truthfully, i'm surprised i didn't go right through it, and plummet to my death. so then i sprayed it with raid. then, i smushed it with a pencil and then cut it in half with my swiss army knife. then i figured it might be all the way dead. since then, my windows have remained closed as this is the second wasp i've had in the house in the past week.

this weekend i'm headed into the city to be gay with dan. we will have us some fun. and possibly some sunburn.

blogger has a fancy new system... oooooh....

since i updated last things here have been uneventful. i went out for drinks last night and discovered i can no longer hold my liquor as i needed to stop after two drinks. this is sad. it means my glory days 'passed me by', like bruce springsteen said. it's hell to be old. ish.

i did buy the hours on dvd on tuesday night, and watched it last night. if you've not seen this movie yet, shame on you. it's wonderful. i like it more every time i see it. it's a beautiful movie to watch and the performances given by the three women (nicole kidman, julianne moore, and merryl streep) are mind-blowing. it makes me think about a lot of things but i think mostly it's sort of about people discovering what it is to be involved in the lives of other people. it's sort of about how we are all interwoven into with the lives of the people in our little worlds and the responsibilities we have to those people and to ourselves.

still neck deep in assessment.

tonight, def leppard was in town. they got picketed by religious protestors waving giant posters about abortion killing and homosexuals going to hell.... does anyone else not get the connection? i sure didn't. the guy from the ice cream stand and i watched the concert goers arrive and some heckled the protestors, which was tres funny. one guy acutally mooned one of them and mooned/smacked his bare ass at another (there were three altogether). the homosexuals part made me wonder if they'll be back for the cher concert in july, 'cause you just know that's gonna be a whole giant bunch of gay, gay, men. i might have to set up a foldin chair to watch that one.

nothing new to report, just been at work. spent tonight at work, helping run a benefit concert given by miss freeport 2003. scenes fromdrop dead gorgeous kept playing over and over in my head... i smiled to myself a lot. lookin' forward to pride parade at the end of june.. much fun to be had there.


personally - still learning, still thinking; some re-evalution and re-assessment goin' on. i feel like maybe there's some changes percolatin'.

well, it seems that i've been on a self-imposed hiatus lately.. been busy.

yesterday i bought high fidelity, classic cinema. my air conditioner is in, praise jesus. got some new books from the library, which i'm looking forward to reading.

finally got a full size bed, just like a grownup.

saw coldplay at the uic pavilion on june 9th. i can't even express what an awesome experience that was; currently my most favorite band, their stuff is just that good. gods, they are.

went to gatlinburg, tn, for a family reunion of sorts.. played with babies and spent time with my dad's side of the family. played golf for the first time in 15 years (and wasn't half bad), and hot tubbed a bunch. good stuff.

cat is fine, box of water is fine..

as far as work is concerned, i turn to one of my favorite writers, dorothy parker, who once said:
"what fresh hell is this?"

been kind of in a tough spot lately, some days are small and lonely, some days are okay. learning a lot about other people.

more to follow...patience, constant reader.

tech......................................................sucks..............................................



must..................get...........................................boring..................................office job..............................
home at 5.......................................weekends off.....................................sleep.........mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

i just read this in a post in some other random blog, and i thought "my god, what a beautiful poem, i must share". if you think that liking poetry makes me flaky, fuck you, read it anyway. i've left it pretty much the way i found it on the other blog; you'll notice that 'spring' is capitalized here, and that's unusual for e.e. cummings. i left it 'cause that's how i found it. i took a poetry class in college, when i was all into english and stuff, and i hoped i could magically write like this, but of course, i can't. according to my classmates in our weekly critiques, all of my poems were about sex. i stopped writing poetry.
if this poem doesn't move you, you have no soul.


somewhere i have never travelled
by e.e. cummings


somewhere i have never travelled, gladly beyond
any experience, your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near


your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully, mysteriously) her first rose


or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;


nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility: whose texture
compels me with the colour of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing


(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens; only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands

my power went out last night for no apparent reason. it was out for around two hours, i'd estimate; i played amish until i fell asleep.

highlights:
- my child abusing neighbor woman knocked on my door to ask if i needed any candles 'cause she had extra in case i was stuck in the dark. mindfuck anyone?
- i discovered that i own more flashlights than should be allowed by law.
- since the only source of noise i had in the apt, that wasn't plugged into the wall, was my walkman i also discovered i have some kick ass music on tape.
- my mexican lottery candle didn't bring me instant millions like i had expected.
- candles and flashlights can make supercool shadows... oh the drama!
- my fish are oblivious to events outside of the tank. and even the ones inside the tank, like when the filter stopped working... although, had they actually noticed, would i know it?
- it's really hard to stay awake when the power's out and you're all by yourself.

other miscellany from the past few days:
- my mom sent me $20 for easter to buy myself an "easter treat"..... i don't know what to buy!!??!! feel free to shout out some suggestions...
- diana krall might be my new goddess
- i'm working at new american again for the summer.. i get to supervise other people.... mmwwwaahhhhaaahahahahahaha
- coldplay, june 9.. hehehehe

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i have the new radiohead. it's so beautiful, it makes me want to cry.

*snif*