i'm applying for both summer jobs and for freelance gigs in chicago. it's a little mind-fucking.

on the one hand, i'm insanely qualified for the freelance gigs, and am so on top of that game. i have a Sexy Resume and all kinds of references and mad skillz.

on the other hand, i'm filling out resumes for grocery stores and borders. on those applications i need my employment history for either the last five years or the last three employers. i've had two employers in the last 8 years. my retail experience was so long ago, the store is closed, and who knows what happened to the people i worked with, not to mention they're half a country away.

it's a weird dichotomy. that is a dichotomy, right? or possibly a juxtaposition?

Joseph is finally open. last night was the culmination of weeks of hard work and drinking. it runs until the end of april. it's turned out to be a good show - the audiences seem to just be eating it up.

in other news, i was laid off for about two days this week. it turned around though, and i am no longer jobless - at least not until april 25th. during the two days i was facing imminent unemployment, it really lit a fire under my ass to get my resume up to date and work on getting pics to revamp ye ol' portfolio. thanks to my friend christa i am now the proud owner of a sexy new resume - one for theater and one for not theater, and possibly another chicago gig with the defiant theater, in addition to the show i'm already doing for tinfish. things are looking up - my plan for jeff awards and then world domination is healthy and under way!

so one of the cast members had a party last night for opening. i got tipsy; it was fantastic. i wasn't "falling-down-can't remember-anything-made-an-ass-of-myself-drunk", just "woooo! talking to everybody-social butterfly-drink in hand-tipsy" and it was great. the whole cast was there at one point or another and i chatted with the director, who is from denver, and have just finished printing up copies of my Sexy Resume for her to take back with her. i think i'm "networking".

i must away now, and purchase new jeans. and crew pants to wear for running the show in a ninja-stealth-covert type style.

Thighs Wide Shut
i think i like this guy. and he seems to be from maryland, so that helps. 'cause all the cool kids are from maryland.

last week the weatherman said we would have mid 50's today. in real life, there are two inches of snow on the ground and it's still snowing.

fucking weathermen.

happy st. patrick's day!

i took some photos of proof the other night... got them developed and discovered i really should wear my glasses when i take pictures with my pentax. i took another roll on sunday and haven't seen those yet; hopefully the glasses made an improvement.

i understand that pedestrians have the right of way in parking lots, but what's so difficult about actually looking around when you're walking out of the store and into moving (albeit slow moving, but moving all the same) traffic?

my nieces (my sister's twins) woke up early on sunday and spent the wee hours of the morning smearing vaseline all over their heads. what's funny (besides just that fact) is that when i was younger, i did that same thing to my little sister. i didn't cover her whole head, but did manage a handful. now, the twins are only 2, and i don't see them that often, and they managed to do the same thing to their sisters (each other) without my evil "bad auntie" influence. i ask you - is vaseline associated aggression possibly a genetic pre-disposition?

does rufus wainwright know he's writing just for me?

i've added a new link in the "good reads" section, it's spam poetry. i think it's brilliant. if you don't, well then, you're just wrong.

i'm sitting here at my computer and my cat is on the floor next to me, going batshit over her organic catnip. it's really funny. also, i'd like to reiterate - i lurve my new computer/office nook.

today at work, people from the community donated two high $$ items to the theater, both of which are specifically for the scene shop. one is a horizontal bandsaw, which i've never seen before but my td assures me will be very useful. the other (which i am immeasurably excited about) is a plotter. for those of you not in the know, a plotter is essentially a giant printer that can print documents that are up to 36" wide. this means i can print out my groundplans and drawings right there at work, instead of going to the outskirts of town where we usually go, or to kinko's where they are incompetent simpletons. it's like having 5 christmases all at once.

i have another word to add to the list of annoying "words" - thanx

also, why is there money?

1. What was the last song you heard?
sunglasses at night - corey hart

2. What were the last two movies you saw?
hidalgo and master and commmander

3. What were the last three things you purchased?
cat treats, mountain dew and gas for my car

4. What four things do you need to do this weekend?
finish painting the set, strike, empty the catbox.

5. Who are the last five people you talked to? jessie, eric, jerry, bob, michaela

i'm at work waiting for paint to dry. i can hardly contain my excitement.

one of the things i don't like about my job is the crazy schedule. dan's birthday is coming up and, because of work, i can't go out with him this weekend. that sucks.

otherwise things are just fine. my right hand is permenantly covered in silver spray paint, which gives me a sort of robotic- michael- jackson- one- glove look goin' on. i recently found a mix cd of 80's tunes i made a while back and that has been giving me hours of listening pleasure as of late. i've scored a freelance gig in chicago in august, which will hopefully start to plant my name in those circles, and lead to other gigs and recognition and then to jeff awards and then to complete world domination. maybe.

my Noisy Neighbors came home at 5 am this morning, and decided they needed to get their groove on. i hate.

st. patty's day is coming up.. i think i may actually go out and have something irish to drink, like a whiskey or something. i have to remember to wear green, people will pinch me hard if i don't. they want to see me cry.

we went and saw hidalgo monday night. it was okay.. there were some really pretty picture moments, and i always enjoy omar sharif. i have to say i probably could've rented it and been okay, but seeing all those horses really did make me want to learn to get crazy on a horse.

today horses was cold. it is 40 or so, but there is a biting wind that whips all around and makes it really frigid outside. also, the wind makes the horses want to play and that makes them hard to steer. we stayed in the ring today, which would've been okay except i couldn't really practice much since luke was all ready to get crazy.

my big home project of the weekend is finished - i broke down my drafting table, folded it up and put it in the hall closet. it's the end of an era. i draft on my computer now, so i moved it over to where my drafting table used to be. it's technically a breakfast nook i guess, but i like to call it my "office". now it's even more like an office since there's a computer and little work counter and i actually spend time here now.

this week i will be cutting off my home phone and internet service, so posts may be less frequent for a short time. i have internet at work though, so posting won't be non-existant, prolly just less. i'll miss having internet at home, it's a debate i've been having for quite some time now.. i need the extra $$ in the bank though, so it's the "responsible" thing to do. damn.

What was...

1. ...your first grade teacher's name?
Sr. Katherine

2. ...your favorite Saturday morning cartoon?
Hard to say. Superfriends or Transformers i suppose.... although i can't remember whether they were on saturday mornings, technically.

3. ...the name of your very first best friend?
Susie Hodgson

4. ...your favorite breakfast cereal?
cap'n crunch with crunchberries

5. ...your favorite thing to do after school?
when i was in middle school my favorite thing to do was make a huge glass of chocolate milk when i got home, but not stir it so after i drank all the milk there was a huge pile of chocolate at the bottom... while watching inspector gadget.

actor's equity can bite my fat white ass.

and chew on it.

these "words" really get on my nerves: thru, nite, xtra
is it really so hard to write the extra letter or two?? is it really such a waste of ink, or time, or effort??!

sunday i rode horses again.. i'm learning to canter. it's great fun, it feels way cooler than trotting. i trotted with no hands on sunday, it was very rad.

work is. i wish we didn't have directors. maybe i should just become a studio artist and live on ramen and rice cakes and soy milk, and not shower for days at a time and listen to folk music.

monday night i drove into chicago to meet friends. on the way there i almost died. i cannot recommend hydroplaning at 65 mph.

i can, however, recommend turtle brownies. and caffiene free mountain dew.
also, it never fails to boost my mood when i get a chance to flip someone the bird. do it often!

last friday jessie and i went and saw rufus wainwright in concert. we were at the riviera in chicago, an old theater that's not really been renovated. you could tell that it was maginificent at one time but has fallen into a state of disrepair. it's too bad really.

rufus, however, was in fine form that night and really put on an excellent show. when he opens his mouth the music just comes out and it looks and sounds as effortless as speaking. he played almost all of want one, some tracks from the upcoming want two and even some old favorites like greek song and danny boy. for his first encore, oh what a world, the whole band and rufus came back out on stage in witch hats and capes in a nod to the wizard of oz. he kept his cape on for the rest of that encore and for the second one as well, which was just him and his piano for a few songs. we managed to get right up front, with just one person between us and the fence and then rufus. we had excellent views of him at the piano, which was aimed right at us, and also when he moved right to the edge of the stage to play guitar. it was a really rad show. very low tech, no moving lights, and he was sassy and totally comfortable on stage. good times, good times.

saturday night i went with alan to a mardi gras party. the guy hosting is from new orleans and so had it right on. there was jambalya, turducken, and something else that i forget the name of.. it was wierd though.. like sausage skins filled with a rice mixture that you squeeze into your mouth, leaving the skin. sounds gross, looks gross, but tastes pretty good. there was also a champagne fountain that had hurricanes instead of champagne and a full bar in the back room. also, there was a live band in the living room. it was a great party and i met some really nice people. one guy told me my hair is a sexy color.

sunday i rode horses in the morning, and spent the rest of the day at home, cleaning. it was great. i feel some re-arranging coming on. yesterday i paid off all my parking tickets, bought a city sticker for parking my car, and put a bunch of money back in my savings account. i feel all responsible. last night we went and saw master and commander at the dollar movies. it was a good movie. i'm glad we paid $1 but i definitely would've paid $5 at a matinee. it's packed with story and action, and the 2 1/2 hours flew by. russell crowe was good.

today is more responsibility, back to work again and some errand running for props. i also am trying to work out a floor treatment for joseph - some abstracted hieroglyphic type stuff.

damn that's a long post.

some days i don't like people. today i like them. we had night one of our media fundraiser event tonight, and the media of rockford rock!! we had news anchors from all the networks, 1/2 the radio stations in town, and the local paper come in and do a variety/talent show to benefit us. they have been so great, and so much more excited than we expected! tomorrow should be a blast!

in the morning i think i may go help out with horses again. i haven't been in a few weeks and i missed it last weekend. it's really early though, and i am kinda tired so i guess i'm still on the fence about it.

proof is coming along, we load that in on monday. there's still a lot of work to be done but we'll get it done; that's what we do.

i had a phone conference with my director for joseph yesterday also. we discussed light up cacti and dismemberable sheep.

i'm on the lookout for a summer job. taco bell is hiring at $9/hr.

how come when you have a little change in your pocket, you feel like you got everything you need but when you got no change, you've never wanted french fries so bad in your entire life?

what i would like to know is...

how do you know when it's time to go?

is there a handbook on this??

also in today's news... i have a meeting at 5:30 to help out a local dance troupe.. the meeting is at the strip club up the street. suhweeet.

you know, i'm really tired of this.

spam poetry

i laughed til i cried. i swear.

it went a little something like this...

he: george bush is cunning and smart. i don't agree with all he's gotten done, but he's gotten a lot of stuff done.

me: hitler got a lot of stuff done too.