i just read this in a post in some other random blog, and i thought "my god, what a beautiful poem, i must share". if you think that liking poetry makes me flaky, fuck you, read it anyway. i've left it pretty much the way i found it on the other blog; you'll notice that 'spring' is capitalized here, and that's unusual for e.e. cummings. i left it 'cause that's how i found it. i took a poetry class in college, when i was all into english and stuff, and i hoped i could magically write like this, but of course, i can't. according to my classmates in our weekly critiques, all of my poems were about sex. i stopped writing poetry.
if this poem doesn't move you, you have no soul.


somewhere i have never travelled
by e.e. cummings


somewhere i have never travelled, gladly beyond
any experience, your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near


your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully, mysteriously) her first rose


or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;


nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility: whose texture
compels me with the colour of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing


(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens; only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands

my power went out last night for no apparent reason. it was out for around two hours, i'd estimate; i played amish until i fell asleep.

highlights:
- my child abusing neighbor woman knocked on my door to ask if i needed any candles 'cause she had extra in case i was stuck in the dark. mindfuck anyone?
- i discovered that i own more flashlights than should be allowed by law.
- since the only source of noise i had in the apt, that wasn't plugged into the wall, was my walkman i also discovered i have some kick ass music on tape.
- my mexican lottery candle didn't bring me instant millions like i had expected.
- candles and flashlights can make supercool shadows... oh the drama!
- my fish are oblivious to events outside of the tank. and even the ones inside the tank, like when the filter stopped working... although, had they actually noticed, would i know it?
- it's really hard to stay awake when the power's out and you're all by yourself.

other miscellany from the past few days:
- my mom sent me $20 for easter to buy myself an "easter treat"..... i don't know what to buy!!??!! feel free to shout out some suggestions...
- diana krall might be my new goddess
- i'm working at new american again for the summer.. i get to supervise other people.... mmwwwaahhhhaaahahahahahaha
- coldplay, june 9.. hehehehe

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i have the new radiohead. it's so beautiful, it makes me want to cry.

*snif*

1. What was the first band you saw in concert?
depeche mode

2. Who is your favorite artist/band now?
right now, it's a toss up between radiohead and coldplay

3. What's your favorite song?
now that, my friends, is a tough call..... too tough for me.

4. If you could play any instrument, what would it be?
drums, violin or cello

5. If you could meet any musical icon (past or present), who would it be and why?
i think i might like to meet cher, because she doesn't take shit from anyone.

my sister, as some of you may already know, writes and publishes her own 'zine, called esperanza. it's about being a mama (as she is to the cutest set of twins in the world) and the trials and tribulations involved, and also all the cool stuff that goes along with having babies. she's starting a distro, so that other mama's can get their mamaselves heard. it's called mamas unidas she's working on getting zines together from all over, and will soon be up and running. check the site often, these zines are good stuff.

on the me me front, i got nuthin.

snippets:

i want to kill you in the face you fucking incompetent fucking moron fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tuesday it was 71 and i wore shorts all day; tonight is 5-8 inches of snow by the morning.

haven't seen a broadway show. get over it!

college. can i please go back?

mmmmmmm.... coldplay.

today was my 10 of 12 tech saturday for proposals. we're in really good shape, got lots done over dinner break, so the show looked really good for tonight's first dress; couldn't see anything major to be done for tomorrow's first audience by the time my td left for dinner.... now, even though we couldn't really forsee any tech notes for set, besides little paint ones... wouldn't you expect the technical director to be back after rehearsal for tech notes?

yeah, so would i. we're mistaken.

who's that sexy girl with the coldplay tickets? oh wait... it's me!

steve knuth was in town tuesday with the david copperfield show, and he hooked a bunch of us up with free tix... i thought the show was pretty fucking incredible... like, i wouldn't even begin to know how to start to guess how any of that shit happened. i just couldn't fathom it.

proposals is in really good shape, and i have a white model done for little shop of horrors so that's pretty much in the bag too... wheeeee!

some of you may have noticed that, for the better part of the day today, my blog was not my blog. i'm not sure what happened there, it wasn't anything i did. the posts were my posts, but the template and everything else was in spanish..... hmmmmm.
obviously, it's all "fixed" now, and hopefully it won't happen again.

i think i may go to the coldplay show, we'll see.

today was soooooo nice out. i wore shorts. i walked to work. my legs... are so white. i washed my car. i have all my apt. windows open and it's sposed to be just as nice tomorrow!!

got some paintin' done, got some more to do.. nailed down the design for little shop, it's so rad.

yeah, that's what i got.

coldplay is on tour. they will play the uic pavilion on june 9th. i could be there, in the balcony or mezzanine for $35, and general admission for $37.50.

i am positively aching to see them. i love them.

do i play responsible and skip it because i have no money? or do i say fuck it all and charge tickets?

who would go with me? to ease the irresponsibility guilt trip i would surely put myself on?

to go or not to go... answer the damn question!

you'll notice below that i found another site with a few interesting quizzes... go take some, they're highly amusing.
also, i've added a new link in the side bar to "george w bush" - it's one of the funniest things i've seen on the web.. and i've seen some funny things on the web.

i went to walmart tonight, and here's my question for the evening:
what would possess a person to think that having their dog on their lap while driving the car is an acceptable practice?
what kind of rock are they smoking?????

also, band name: male panties
also also, what up with my font being all fucked up on my last friday five?????

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1. What was your most memorable moment from the last week?
i'm not gonna write it on the blog. so let's say....layin the smack down during the music round at pub quiz after arguing over a band name with an obnoxious team mate.

2. What one person touched your life this week?
people touch my life every day since i'm one of those "little things that count" people. so, too many to write down.

3. How have you helped someone this week?
i was posse; i think i helped.

4. What one thing do you need to get done by this time next week?
proposals..... the show, i'm not actually proposing to anyone, you twit.

5. What one thing will you do over the next seven days to make your world a better place?
clean my apartment before tech, and eat during tech (don't fool yourself, that's not necessarily a given).

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i laughed my ass right off.

well well well. i've officially decided, i may be too old to rockstar.

i went down to school for mardi gras, some of you witnessed, and i stayed up all night long on saturday. i can't remember the last time i did that, but it was surreal. i wasn't even drunk!!??!! just awake. i did get to nap for 3 hours, intermittently, but boy did i crash on sunday night. it was a good time.

sunday night we watched the oscars and i have to say i was disappointed. steve martin let me down, man, and i think the whole "subdued" campaign just sucked. i can understand that the academy (or whomever) felt like a big celebration might be inappropriate. i saw barbara walters on nightline saying that she had been part of a discussion about whether or not to even hold the oscars this weekend. it's true we're at war, but i think that getting on with everyday life is just as important as supporting our troops and keeping informed about current events. i was also dismayed by the recipients who chose to use their acceptance speech time to spout off political comments. that was the wrong platform for airing those kinds of opinions. i think that night is supposed to be a celebration of art and achievement, not a soapbox. i tune in to see the hideous outfits, the movie stars resplendent in their 80 million dollar gowns with the 90 billion dollar jewelry, all that obnoxiously fabulous excess, who's dating who, and all the red carpet interview fluff that goes with it. people go to the movies to escape the strife and stress of everyday and i don't think it's appropriate to introduce that stress into an event which is created specifically to provide and celebrate that much needed reprieve.

a blog, however, is an appropriate soapbox. and now you're all lathered up... ;).

just screwing around on the web tonight, found a blog by an iraqui guy our age who is living in baghdad. go read it. it's current.

1. If you had the chance to meet someone you've never met, from the past or present, who would it be?
that is a tough question. i think it would've been neat to meet dorothy parker, or zelda fitzgerald or eleanor roosevelt, or i think it would be neat to meet one of my donnelly family members that came here from ireland, so i could ask them why.

2. If you had to live in a different century, past or future, which would it be?
i think i would be a guy in the 13th or 14th century, a knight would be cool; or a guy in 17th century paris.

3. If you had to move anywhere else on Earth, where would it be?
paris, france or london, england

4. If you had to be a fictional character, who would it be?
Idgy Threadgood.

5. If you had to live with having someone else's face as your own for the rest of your life, whose would it be?
i don't know, reese witherspoon, julianne moore, maura tierney, gwyneth paltrow... any of these would do.

this stupid war has blocked out both the guiding light and er! fuck it!!

on another note, i need some advice i think. the woman who moved into the apt. across the hall from me verbally abuses her
toddler(s) on a regular basis. we share the wall to our respective living rooms. i hear her scream at them all the time, and them screaming full-on little kid screams all the time, the kind which makes me suspect that if she's not beating them, she's at least manhandling them. i've heard her call them (i think there's two) stupid, cocksuckers, bitches and fucks and she screams at them to 'get your ass back in bed'. should i say something to my super?

i'm morally pretzeled.

band name: sugar-free ezra

shout it a couple times in a monster truck guy voice. i think you'll find it works.....

so my weekend was pretty good. friday i picked up jessie and sauber at the airport (yay!). and then jessie and i went into the city to help dan celebrate his birthday.. it was a lot of fun, we went to spin, and kristen was able to come too - we haven't gotten to play together in quite a while so that was great. we stayed out late, and kristen made crepes in the morning in honor of dan's actual b-day, which was saturday. saturday afternoon, jessie and i left dan's and went to the brookfield zoo. we saw monkeys and elephants and tigers and lions and walruses and sea lions and dolphins and other stuff too :). there were lots of kids there, but most of the time i felt like we were at our own personal zoo. the weather was beautiful and we had a great time. then we went to famous dave's for wings, and home for junior's cheesecake and ocean's eleven. it was a great day.

i was just reading some of my most recent posts, and i realized i forgot to mention one of the things jackie and i did was go to a bookstore in chicago called quimby's.. it's in bucktown and they carry her 'zine esperanza. you should go there, it's off the damen stop on the blue line, and they carry 'zines on everything you can think of... 'zines are pretty cool i think, it's an opportunity for anyone who's got something to say be published and heard for like almost no $$. i took her picture holding her zine and we were total cheesy tourists. it was great. she's now thinking about opening her own bookstore back in baltimore.. so exciting!!